Of eye bags and white hair

Been having my exams these few weeks. It was the craziest 2 weeks of my life. Studying nonstop from morning to night. Trying to cram in 3 semesters worth of anatomy and histo in only a few days. When I was studying, my senior's advice of starting early kept flashing in my head. Nontheless it's all over. I did pretty well so I'm proud of myself and of my other study group members. We really pushed ourselves passing any limit that we've set. Looking back only a few days ago, it freaks me out. Sleeping only when we could read no more. Books strewn on the floor. And to keep ourselves from being bored to death and to keep us awake, we kept smoking shisha everyday. We didnt even have time to cook so for the 2 weeks, we've been living on biscuits, bread and junk food. I seriously lost a lot of weight.

Histology exam was on the 16th. The nights before exams are always the worst. The lack of sleep from the nights before really got to us. There were hallucinations, a certain extra-hyper person dancing around, whacking of own heads, and screamings when you realise you just couldn't take anymore. Exam was at 9. We studied till 8.30 in the morning and decided to head back to our own rooms to bathe, and get changed. I on the other hand couldn't take it anymore. So I slept for a good 15 mins and was surprisingly fresh after that short power nap.

Our format for the exams were as the usual. Theory questions, slides, electron micrograph pictures. Once you're done preparing for that, you answer orally. One on one with the teacher. Anatomy was the same except with the cadaver. Good thing our cadaver was in a bad shape, so we couldn't really point out much.

I managed to get good marks for both exams so I'm satisfied. Celebrated the night by going out to T.G.I.F. After a long time of not having a good meal, the Rosemary tenderloin I had really made my day. Plus I haven't eaten pork in a real long time, since my blockmates are all muslims, so I was really contented.

But this exam really got to me. I've been having a hard time falling asleep at nights and I seriously think i have more white hair now. Trying to get it all together this semester break and since baby is coming to moscow to visit, i'm getting geared up for that.

Can't wait.


hey i think he's smiling... i'll take that as a congrats from u.

What we were waiting for ...

Only the most anticipated series, long awaited for it's premier in 2008.

And since it Is 2008, Happy New Year!

Did nothing much on the eve, thus making it seem more like a Crappy New Year. My roomate broke up with her boyfriend. I was about to enter my room when I heard the person on the other side of the door plunging the key into the lock so I just continued on walking ahead down the corridor. Sniffles were heard behind me but moving in the opposite direction and I knew that it was over. My roomate seemed okay. Guess it was the right thing to do. Who's to say.

So a couple of my friends came over and we had junkfood and drinks. Played cards through the night and when we got dead bored, we decided to watch a movie. Shoot em' up, the title read. Sounded interesting, and it was. Not a very logical show but nevertheless it was a perfect use of time. Want your children to eat carrots? Make them watch this show. I especially loved the sex scene of this movie. Unlike any other typical love making scene, this one includes him dancing around the room, still pleasuring her while taking out the bad guys with just a pistol.. They must want that orgasm that badly.


But what we were waiting for is not this show. I'm talking bout the very show anticipated by most lesbians and somehow more straight people that I would imagine.

What could be bigger ?

Screams of joy! Weeeeeeeeeee...

Am watching the first episode already.

Happy New Year!

Finally!

Luck is on my side these few days and it's made me more than estatic.

I got my credits for anatomy and histology. One step closer to my final exams. We celebrated by running off to McDonald's and binging even though we were pretty much broke for the month. Watched I Am Legend with "adek" and "nenek" =p Was quite an impressive movie for such a simple story line though the ending was crap.

While watching Evan Almighty, Hantu IM-ed me, asking if I was going for the christmas bash that was on Saturday. I had planned to go but seeing as how my wallet wouldn't allow it, I decided to skip the charity event. And boy was I glad I didnt purchase the ticket for lo and behold! they had extra tickets to give away and I got THREE! Weeeeee!


Jaclyn Victor was superb as usual. She was really down to earth, hopping about without her shoes, inviting all of us to join her up on stage, and allowing us snap pictures with her. Really unfortunate that she was only in moscow for a day or two. We could have brought her around =p
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In a mood to relax since I've got the important part over and done with. Haven't been doing much these few days besides playing cards, chess and of course the highlight of my week.. Iceskating! There's a park in front of my hostel with a beautiful lake surrounded by trees. Fell down a couple of times since it's my first time and the part cleared for iceskating is not as smooth as those in the malls or what not. But over all it was good. I initally went to the park for a good morning jog which turned out to the discovery of the iceskating area. So yey! =D

Loving father helping his son up the stairs.. by pulling the hood of his jacket.
Brilliant

Damn, wonder how is it so easy to spot me.

Say the right words

Ayang, it's me again! Blogging in pink hehe :)

You're very frustrated now as the internet is acting up again. Le sigh.. Distance. All of a sudden I realise I'm alone this Christmas, without my sayang. And you likewise, have not had a proper Christmas for quite some time. Oh dear, this post seems really depressing. It was meant to lighten you up at this very frustrating time. I remember preparing your parcel two Christmases ago, filling it up with anything Christmas-y I could find. I really meant to do the same this year and last year, but the postal system here is very different and I'm sorry I couldn't dear. Promise we'll spend Christmas together next year, right? :) So baby, in the meantime... (some Christmas song that's been stuck in my head, restaurant keeps playing it):

Welcome to my Christmas song
I'd like to thank you for the year
So I'm sending you this Christmas card
To say it's nice to have you here
I'd like to sing about all the things
Your eyes and mind can see
So hop aboard the turntable
Oh step into Christmas with me, year

Step into Christmas
Let's join together
We can watch the snow fall forever and ever
Eat, drink and be merry
Come along with me
Step into Christmas
The admission's free (particularly this part keeps playing over and over :\ )

Take care in all you do next year
And keep smiling through the days
If we can help to entertain you
Oh we will find the ways S
o Merry Christmas one and all
There's no place I'd rather be
Than asking you if you'd oblige
Stepping into Christmas with me

Step into Christmas
Let's join together
We can watch the snow fall forever and ever
Eat, drink and be merry
Come along with me
Step into Christmas
The admission's free

Can you imagine me singing it maniacally to you? Haha! I miss you ayang. Here's to us, all 2 years plus and more. Never met someone like you, and I know I never will. Intriguing, gentle, patient, passionate, beautiful, charming, funny, nonsensical all jumbled up into my one and only. You never fail to amaze me. *muahss.


The freaky snowman family.. (ayang look, the dog is actually not real. Nothing is.. Ahhhhh)


All you need is trust, and a little bit of pixie dust!

And to think it all started off with this, and random chats, and curiosity, and choice to just let go and let be. The heart has its reason that reason knows nothing of. How true. I love you baby.

Love

It's everything that's wrong in this world.

It's everything that's right..

Grrr

Why do i even bother staying up

it doesn mk a difference

and i dont get anything out of it

so why do i bother..

why?

We are one

I do absolutely nothing, lay back and just blast tasteful music into my

perfectly pink shelled ears.

Nothing else exists.

Nothing else matters.

Nothing else is real.

Just you..

And the music...

Bliss...

The feeling

Eyes wide open
an insane feeling
something's not right.
I've felt this before.
I wished I was home.
Only because the location would recognize the feeling.
Can't quite place it.
This feeling.
Felt it during my adolescent years.
Feeling of being neglected.
Fear forms a fort.
Surrounding us.
I thought I would outgrow this feeling.
But solitude is a never ending vicious circle.
And we're doomed to just be spinning around.
Endlessly, for all of time.

Update me, somebody..

What is happening to our country? I'm not exactly sure of the situation in Malaysia but I've read many articles and seen many clips and pictures from blogs to know that something is not right over there. Police using tear gases on people? Buses being held? Roads being blocked all for a gathering? I've heard that, that lawyer guy actually found the original statement and agreement of our independence stating that all citizens of Malaysia which means chinese and indians included are actually bumiputeras? and we actually have equal rights to everything else or what not. I'm too tired to think of this right now. Just hope there isn't another May 13 situation again. It's almost 4am. I'm going to bed. Worse comes to worse, if anything happens to our country I'm going to find an island, build a home and eat bananas all day.

XD

My sister.

The only person in my family who doesn't know about me.

I couldn't help but let out a sarcastic remark upon her bringing up the mention of her boyfriend in our family conversations again. I really don't care about his likes and dislikes. I really don't care that it'd be easier for him to eat at his favourite restaurant and see you at the same time now. I really don't care that he bought gifts for mum already although it would months till we return home for summer. Suck up.

Damn thing is I have no right to be upset over this though to me it just seems like she's gloating. But isn't that what people do when they're in love. They want to share it with the people that care. They want the world to know that they're happy and contented and I on the other hand can't do that.

Who would congratulate me upon having found someone to share my life with. Who would pat me on the shoulder and be happy for what I have. Who would have a shoulder ready for me when me and my girl are going through rough times and all I need is a little support.

No not them. Not my family. Because to them, my relationship is meaningless and my dreams of having it all are wishywashy.

But someday, I'll make u open your eyes.

I'll make you see her like I see her.

I'll make you love her like how I love her.

Someday...