bit of update from prague..

in prague.. tired from walking all day. just came back from tour, and free roaming. suppose to head off to some "happening" clubs tonight but slightly exhausted. B n D are taking naps, i on the other hand met someone i found interesting today, and immediately felt like i needed to google that person. 

Yes, i found her online. 

Yes, i might seem like a stalker, but it's only because i regret not talking to her more. (She was with a bunch of friends) 

It's rare that i find someone that triggers my button, and make me perk up to listen to them. 

I might intend to pursue this ... little quest in getting to know this person from afar. 

Do not think less of me! I swear, i'm not psycho.. 

Merely, trying to catch hold of opportunities (oh what a lame excuse) 

Btw, if one believes in fate, then you'd say that it's fate that i met someone that i've been avoiding for the past month, here, right in the very front of the prague castle. Wonders never cease.. -_-''

D just walked into the room and i was caught of guard by his presence that i pulled the cord of the keyboard. I think he secretly eyed me, fumbling about with the wire, tryin to put it back and he walked off. I hate blogging when people are around. I rather they not know bout it.. 

Well, better be heading off now. 

Toodles~

im now in berlin. i think almost all the hostels im stayin at provide free internet. i had initially planned to update my blog every chance i got but unfortunately its not possible to fit every event in such a small amount of time. of course, i dont want to spend all my time in front of the computer. but if i dont write stuff down, im to forget all of whats happened. as it is, im absent minded and forgetful. shall write down everything that happened in point form,save the draft and fill in the blanks later on. hopefully i would still remember what happened.

bad year for a trip to europe bcos of the cold,but im still enjoying myself =)

Countdown

Exam in 2 days time..

Trip in 3...

Weather in Europe seems to be warming up a bit.. Can't say the same for Moscow though. Temperatures went down to -20 again today and i canceled my plan to exchange money. I'm not going out there. Na ah. No wonder Russians are so cranky. It's winter half the year through. They're suffering from winter depression longer than most people. I've had my share of that disorder. But nothing like a long hot shower, and of course turning up every light you have in the room helps me get through. Perhaps this are one of the reasons Russians are the way they are.

Just the other day i witnessed a verbal dispute as i was getting onto a bus. A man, placed 22 roubles on the door counter and waited for his ticket. The bus driver seeing this refused to acknowledge the money because the fare had actually increased to 26roubles. The main waited, the driver waited, and i waited, and no one is doing a bladdy thing. Behind me a couple of 'babushkas' (grandmothers) were lining up as well.

All of a sudden, the driver burst out from his seat and shouted at the man, "What the hell do you want?"
"I want my ticket!!" the man shouted back.
"Are you stupid, can't you read?" as the driver pointed to the door where the fares were all listed down.

Me, seeing this slowly inched back in case they decided to brawl. Yet, i was amused by the whole conversation. Their voices were drawing attention from everyone in and out of the bus. Practically screaming their heads off and i had front row seats to the show.

"Well, how bladdy much is the ticket now?!"
Can't the stupid bugger read.. -_-

"26roubles!!" the driver shouted, losing every bit of patience he had.
Behind me the babushka was answering meekly as well.. "26....26..."
"SEE! Even the babushka knows how much it is!" the driver shouted, humiliating the man who then tried to brush it off saying "Of course i knew how much it was, i take the damn bus everyday," which was nothing close to a strong comeback.

He took the ticket and walked to the back of the bus, with everyone shaking their heads in discontentment. My head was filled with giant bouts of laughter which i tried not to express on my face.

But seriously, how smooth everything would have been, if the driver had politely corrected the man. Or if the man had apologized for being so damn dense. It would have saved us alot of time, and he would have saved himself from being humiliated. Russians... sigh. I'd like to go to a place where people apologize even if they aren't at fault, instead of being in a country where they'd do something to you, just so they would have the opportunity to Not apologize. Arrogant bastards.

Thank God their women are beautiful, otherwise we'd have no reason to like them at all.

MMmmm...как вкусно ...Ms. Natalia

Giving in to temptation is not defeat, it's indulgence.

No idea how i came to think that. But it does suit the situation.

I've finally decided to do my exam on a later date. Wise choice? NO IDEA. No matter how relieve i feel after making that decision, i can't help but have my guilty conscience keep kicking me in the rear. I"m not the sort of person who would pend an exam. Perhaps it was the effect of failing for the very first time last semester. Somehow failing an exam in a medical course isn't as horrifying as other courses ( i suppose ) You simply, retake the paper, no questions asked, no hassle, and no one judges you. But still, that unfamiliar feeling overwhelmed me when i failed Pathology Anatomy last year. Worse part was, i didnt even want to do the exam then. I had to literally force it all in, sighing and moaning and grumbling after reading every third question. After that experience, deciding not to take the exam this time around was much easier. Of course, being that and the fact that i have devils as friends. One by one, everyone starting dropping out, sinking, and puling me down with them. My room became a hot spot for people who weren't doing the exam on time. It became a place to eat and drink, and sing and shisha all night long. I'm not proud of this. In fact, i had the pleasure of being warned by my blockmates to keep it down. They said they've been tolerating me since christmas. Aaaahhh... out of all the things i hate being intolerable.. i mean.. I really dont wanna have to be tolerated. I'm not that sort of person who you would have to put up with, i'm the type you Wanna live with. Is it my fault for not knowing how to put on a stern face and kick people out of my room. Yes, there are times when people overstay their welcome and all you do is just sit and ignore them and they still don't get the hint and leave.

So here i am, sitting in my room, alone with the silence, enjoying the peace. I've been on downloading frenzy the last couple of days. There are just too many good movies out there. Recent watch would be Dorian Gray. Absolutely delightful watch. I've read the book when i was younger. Always pictured what i'd be like if it were made into a movie. Though as i watched the movie seemed perfectly clear to me. Story line and all, my friends however didn't quite grasp it all. For those who have not read the book, it would seem a bit abrupt in certain places. Main plot is well fitted in, but the bits and pieces in between seem to have been thrown in like dashes of salt added to a meal , a little bit here and there. This is only one man's opinion of course.

"You have the only two things worth having, Mr. Gray. Youth and beauty."

The blind side. Another movie worth watching. To me, it's a perfect blend of humour, and warmth. (no idea if that made sense to u) Though it portrayed only the perfection of the family, and the society, you can't help but think of it as a fairy tale or dream come true. Best part is, it is. A good movie to watch on a Saturday night, snuggling in close with your family, fighting for the pillows. A movie that leaves you smiling at the end.

"Are you goin to protect the family, Michael?"

Next up on my list of movies to watch, are Time traveller's wife and Lovely bones. Regret never having read both books but i'm sure i'll enjoy both movies immensely. Well, there's really not much sense in worrying and feeling guilty for not sitting for my exam. Might as well make most of the time i have.

As i quote Lord Henry in 'Dorian Gray' - "The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing"

Indeed Lord Henry, Indeed..

Impending doom..

Days left to exam = 8

Progress so far = 15%

I should just shoot myself ..

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Between right about this time, and the day before any exam, God receives crap loads of messages. All asking the same thing.. Please help me pass my exam. I don't care what i get, as long as i pass. I'll promise to give up.. "...." (whatever it is).

There's a joke i heard though, that i wished was true.

There were 3 hostels in a campus. 3 days before finals, God sent an angel to inspect the students. Students in hostel 1 were studying, students in hostel 2 were studying as well, but the students in hostel 3 were drinking and partying away. The angel reported back, and repeated the inspection the next day. The same thing was going on. Students in hostel 1 and 2 were busy burning the midnight oil and burying their faces in books, while the students in the hostel 3 were getting wasted. Now on the night before the finals, God sent his angel to inspect the students for the last time, He needed to reconfirm on who deserved his blessings more. The angel looked into hostel 1 and 2. They were all studying, as to no surprise. But when the angel came to hostel 3, he was shocked to see all of the students, on their knees. Praying to God.. The angel reported back. The next day, everyone from hostel 3 passed with flying colours. God shrugged and said, well, 'They were the ones who took the time to pray'.

Hahahaha.

Yea i know it's kind of a stupid joke, but i kinda like the ending to it :P
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Not really in the mood of studying, partly because of my bad neck ache i've been having since the new year. Not a good start. Slept in an extremely distorted position and now i can't turn to the left at all. I feel the tension in my left shoulder all the time, as if there's pressure on it. Sort of reminds me of that movie, Shutter. (which i now regret mentioning >.< ) Should get back to studying then. Feeling the guilt today as i blew off studying yesterday to seek motivation from others, only to end up drinking till 6am. Aiyayai...

Whatever will we do with you, key..

Happy 2KX ya'll

It's the year of the Tiger. I love sitting down at this time of year reading back my horoscopes of the previous year just to see if it was true. Can't tell most of the time anyway. It's usually all so vague.

Did the usual drinking and jumping and wishing at the stroke of midnight, though i was quite sober this time around. I wish to not share the horrors i went through right before the new year(because of a certain someone). Let's just leave the past, in the past.

Anyway wishing everyone out there a happy new year and may this year be better than the last. (that's what we always say) but there are always ups and downs to every thing. So there's no comparison really. Unless your luck is really shitty throughout the year. Oh well, we shall see.

Happy 2Kx, people..