I used to be a lot more interesting. I swear!

I realized that i once used to regularly update my blog, with ideas, my daily stories, or just utterly random silly topics. I guess it's fun to read back and remember how you were back then, but i cant help but compare the Me i am today, and who i was.

Am i really that much different now. I fear somehow that is true. I used to be funny (not that i dont think i am now, but it's a whole different kinda funny). Sillier would be a better word. I used to be able to write better. My vocabulary has long gone down the sewers. I used to be more expressive. Detailed. Perhaps i used to breathe in life. Like really, just took every moment into consideration and feel everything.

I need to get back to where i was before. No matter how broken down, or how badly mangled my heart and mind has been, i owe it to myself to at least try, to be the person that i once was.

I wanna be the retarded, fun loving self that i once was.

We'll see how this goes.