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still a bit confused.. still a bit blur.

i accidentally used my sister's toothbrush just now.. didnt even realise it was the wrong one till midway. =/

went jogging in morning. had a good run in the rain. had managed to finish off editing and putting together song's for mum's training. took me a whole damn week to do that, cos mum keeps changing songs she wants and the time limit. yet to choreograph all of the moves. in the process of it. looking forward to teaching a bunch of old man dance grease lightning by myself too.

haven't had the time to take lessons for driving all these years. dad has suddenly decided that i should start now, when last year he was against it -_- tried driving around my area so far, and i must said i'm pretty good despite never having taken lessons. inexperienced yes, but i'm good babeh.. huhhu . watever

practicals starts next monday. planning to do it for 2 weeks at the most. then i'll be running away. holidays this time around is too short. too many things to do so little time. but i guess it's best to keep myself busy.

time to think of moves for my dance..

need to also reformat mum's laptop to use as my own. feel like it's just the worst year ever. hard to believe in anything anymore, what with the fire, with deaths, bad health, financial problems, studies, and youknowwhats, etc.. somehow it's taken alot out of me. i feel like i have lost the essence of life. and sometimes right when you need someone to talk to, they all turn a blind eye towards you and run away. there are so few you can trust, even fewer you can open up to.

fed up of history repeating itself. there's only so much you can take. so many people that can step on you before you finally say, no more.. no more..

but i'm a fool .. a damn fool.. so i can bet you this will happen again.

so naive..