everything's changed..

well it's already been 5 days since i've touched down from Moscow. so far it's been so hectic, i haven't the time to open this laptop of mine at all. of course, 90% of the things that were keeping me busy was food. coming home this time, everything seemed so different, so surreal that coming home, didnt really feel like i was.. u know.. coming Home.. or maybe it's the fact that im getting used to all this.

but rili, everything's changed. for starters, my house isn't the same. since the fire, they took the opportunity to change almost everything. the colors are diff, the tiles, the walls, the furniture, even my dog looks different. i needed a while to get used to it.

went to ipoh during the weekend. with ahma not being there, the house felt empty. stopped by the church to pay her a visit, and sis started crying uncontrollably even before we got down from the car. damn her and her water works got me goin as well. but we all do miss her.. we cried when we reminisce bout her adorable ways, we cried when we cleared her stuff.. i cried just looking at her picture hanging on the wall. i dont think this is something that i'll ever get over..

i know i'm just yapping away here. but everyone's asleep, and i have nothing else better to do.

spent the morning choreographing a dance for some big shot's annual dinner. spent the whole afternoon editing songs for mum. i have no idea how my time just passes by. almost a week since i've been back. already i have to start my practicals next monday. actually tonight would be the first night that i'll be sleeping alone. since i came home i've been sleeping with my parents and cramming in between my sisters. i dont know why, something about this house, makes me feel a bit lonely. it's like a reminder of something i've lost, or someone and i just didnt wanna be alone for the first few nights.

anyway i guess i better be headin off to bed. i know i dont talk much when i'm back in malaysia. if u have met my mother and sister, u would know why. so this is just my place to crap, verbal diarrhea or watever..

~taaa