First off, I'm most prolly gonna take this Moji thing off me blog on account that it can't read me right and it's pissing me off at times. I know you're cute and all you lil fur ball, but you do me no good. Paniatnia? (means 'understand' in Russian).

Speaking of Russian.. I'll be going back to that hell hole next week. Kinda bumms me out everytime I think of it. Trying to enjoy my last days here, and so far it's been giving me bad tummy aches. (Stuffing yourself with a year's amount of food is just plain silly. Don't do it!) Still, I don't wanna regret not having it all, so yea, it's a painful kinda pleasure.

Tak, Rossia, ya idu. Kaneshna, ya ni khachu, no, shto delat. Da?
(So, Russian, I go. Of course I don't want to, but, what to do. Right?)

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Gwen Stefani had her concert yesterday. And I assume that it would prolly be somewhat of an experience that she never would like to have ever again, thus canceling every thought of returning to this country. At times like this that I'm somewhat sadden to say that I'm a Malaysian. To assume that just because a person comes from a country that has a different culture from ours, she wouldn't be able to respect it and act accordingly. As I read, she had even promised to cover up every inch of her bare skin, even wearing leotards underneath her skirts. I would imagine the shock she gets when she gets up stage and looks down upon her fans, dressing more obscenely that she is (cos i'm sure that would be the case). Does PAS really think that their suggestion of banning the concert would really make a difference in the acts of youths these days when there are so many other influences out there? I dunno. Just seems kinda stupid to me. Well, that's just me blabbering at 2 in the morning. Don't come finding me for saying all this crap.

In another matter, I had almost put this video up till I realised that it's not really a good idea. Seeing how he's already in trouble, I wouldn't like to seem like I'm supporting him in any way. I don't understand how some people have so much time to do all this. To create a rap based on your country's song. Too free ahhh. Perfect timing too seeing as how Malaysia's 50th year of independence is coming up. Was just sitting down and trying to think of all that Malaysia's accomplished over the years, somehow nothing else was entering my mind except for all the years that we've managed to cook up the biggest dish, be it mooncake or yee sang or kuih lapis or something or other. Can't quite remember, but I'm sure it's recorded in the Malaysia's Guinness Book of record. Well, it's food, and we're Malaysians. It's the only combination that is farely well known throughout the country. You could litterally hear the clicks from our brains to our stomachs. It's an instant connection.
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While playing my guitar today, I recalled having writtten a couple of songs back in the days (cheh wahh.. back in the days.. makes me sound freaking old eh?) Fine it was just back in the days when I was still emotionally retarded, writing corny poems and crappy songs. I used to write in on any piece of paper I had at the moment and the one I found is all yellow and faded. It's an additional drama that would occur when a song or lyric pops into my head and I'd be so afraid of losing it that I'd sing it over and over again till I manage to find a piece of paper and a pen. And sometimes I would have so much mental music going on that I'd be just scribbling the paper trying to jot it all down, and at the end of it I'd just plop down on the floor, exhausted like I've just done a 3 hour exam. I remember playing it in a vehement manner once everything is done, just so full of emotions......

Just to realise that you've wasted your time, because it sounds like crap..

Em7, Bm, Caad9, G
Found the pieces of my heart,
Trying to put them back together,
It used to hurt when we're apart,
Now it's gonna hurt forever,

Em, A
Cos since you've walked out that door,
I want you back no more,
You're just a distant memory,
And in time you will be gone.

Chorus: D,A,G,A
Wasted my time, trying to find someone,
That I had in mind, in you,
Now that's it clear, I'll tell you my dear,
That my biggest mistake was you....

It continues on, but I change my mind about typing it all down. I just wanted to preserve my childhood (which much contains stupidity and callowness). Perhaps looking back on this post in the future, I would find this all amusing. It's my hope that I do actually continue to grow as a person and if I do not, well, let's just say some hospital somewhere is gonna end up with a really
quacked up doctor.

PS: Baby, don't ever ask me to sing that song for you. Just somehow felt like you would. Don't!