I had originally planned to type a more lively post about my activities yesterday. Somehow just not in the mood right now. Can't quite put my finger on it, but I just feel down. Missing B as usual. I know she's worrying about the visa that she's yet to apply. I worry about her worrying and of course I am too worrying about the visa. But I can't let it out, can I? Gotta stay strong. So many things running through my mind right now I can't quite focus on one. Packing my luggages takes all the energy out of me. It's all like a damn puzzle trying to figure out which and what fits where so that all of the space in between is filled with something somehow. And all the worrying about what I might leave out. I wrote a list of Things-To-Bring. My sister didn't take it too seriously and started adding her own list of nonsense in. She got quite a nag from me.
Somehow as I'm stressed and wound up about something, my thoughts always turn to B. I know she goes through alot and I have to give her props for being so independent all of the time. Know that I never respect anyone more than I do her. She has all of my awe set on her. I know that I could never be half of what she is. I'm proud of you B. I hope you know that. Love you lots.. Missing you more... Everyday..
Been feeling so tired these few days. Have I mentioned this? I don't quite remember. Seem to be repeating myself without realising. Anyway, I'm off to bed to see my dream girl.
Nitez~
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