April Laze..

What a way to welcome the good month of April.. With snow.. >.< Yea, it can even go up your nose. I think everyone has been long expecting Spring, and we all had hope when the ice on the ground started melting, making little streams, cascading all over the place. But here it is again, falling from the perfectly blue sky. Seems like God has been craving for alot of Ice Kacang lately. Anyway I have a feeling, with the bad weather, everyone is just getting melancholic and lazy. I've tried so hard to study this week, but i just end up doing absolutely nothing but play my guitar and sleep. Guess the only consolation is I've learnt a few new songs.

It's been such a mellow week, and my mind just keeps drifting off to no where, that I even forgot about April Fool's day. Which Never happens. I usually pre-plan a prank every year but this year I just had no mood to come up with anything creative. I contemplated writing some scary words on the bathroom mirror with a candle, and when someone bathed, the steam would fog up the mirror and the words would form but, i kinda lost the zing to do that. Do wonder sometimes if I'm getting old.

Everyone's been passing a link to a blog of a Sabahan doctor. He's had a couple of HO's under him. Taking the opportunity to criticize students from Ukraine and Russia for their lack of knowledge of practical skills, it has arise alot of uncertainties among the students here and Ukr. My sister has been constantly worrying about it, which makes my mum bombard me with questions and suggestions. Guess it suits well with my lazy mood, because frankly I don't give a damn what others are saying. I just tell my mum like how it is.. it the end it'll all come down to each individual. We learn what we can when we do our attachments back home. No one knows or picks up everything from the very first try. I am prepared to be shouted at, and to be discriminated just because i studied in Moscow but come what may. I can't say I'm not frighten by the very thought of venturing out into the medicine field, knowing you'll be looked down on but.. there are no two ways about it.

We learn everything that there is to learn. Is it really the students fault that we are perhaps not accustom to the protocols in Malaysia, what more you now implement a rule that we are to do our practicals in Russia (thank God, it's been postponed to next year). Not many people know this, but even as we do our practicals in Malaysia, some doctors refuse to teach and some pay less attention to those who are unfortunate enough to study in Russia.


Sometimes I feel like we're the unwanted batch of doctors. It's scary enough to think that in a few years time we're about to grad to a profession which requires us to place the life of others in your hands. I can't imagine half of the people here as doctors. I can't imagine myself ending up like that. To being, someone so serious.. Sometimes i wished i had chosen to become a psychiatrist instead. But then again, this has always been The dream..

A dream.. is a wish.. your heart makes.. (it's a Disney song.. I'm not being corny)