scribbles of the heart

It's april. snow still falls sometimes but i think it's safe to say we can begin to look forward to warmer weathers. Intervarsity games has came to an end so i guess i'll be back to my mundane life. thank god. no more waking up early for morning trainings. what did we get in the end? gold of cos. kicked ass. pretty proud of my team and of myself for scoring the golden goal ending a string of draws for penalty shots. we've earned bragging rights bringing home 1 of the 3 golds won by our uni. the underdogs have proven themselves. how the weight of gold around my neck somehow makes my head light haha

for the past few weeks, iv been avoiding u know who. unfortunate as it that i couldnt do so since we were playing in the same team and ironically ended up spending 3 days together being inseparable. after the games, all that was on my mind was, What now? do i go back to avoiding her, or do i stick around awaiting her next imminent action that would naturally hurt me as i retreat once more. y do i keep having faith and being let down again and again.

insanity- is doing the same thing again and again but expecting different results.

im just impossible to convince. sigh.
stubborn heart.. free me from this sorrow.