Giving in to temptation is not defeat, it's indulgence.

No idea how i came to think that. But it does suit the situation.

I've finally decided to do my exam on a later date. Wise choice? NO IDEA. No matter how relieve i feel after making that decision, i can't help but have my guilty conscience keep kicking me in the rear. I"m not the sort of person who would pend an exam. Perhaps it was the effect of failing for the very first time last semester. Somehow failing an exam in a medical course isn't as horrifying as other courses ( i suppose ) You simply, retake the paper, no questions asked, no hassle, and no one judges you. But still, that unfamiliar feeling overwhelmed me when i failed Pathology Anatomy last year. Worse part was, i didnt even want to do the exam then. I had to literally force it all in, sighing and moaning and grumbling after reading every third question. After that experience, deciding not to take the exam this time around was much easier. Of course, being that and the fact that i have devils as friends. One by one, everyone starting dropping out, sinking, and puling me down with them. My room became a hot spot for people who weren't doing the exam on time. It became a place to eat and drink, and sing and shisha all night long. I'm not proud of this. In fact, i had the pleasure of being warned by my blockmates to keep it down. They said they've been tolerating me since christmas. Aaaahhh... out of all the things i hate being intolerable.. i mean.. I really dont wanna have to be tolerated. I'm not that sort of person who you would have to put up with, i'm the type you Wanna live with. Is it my fault for not knowing how to put on a stern face and kick people out of my room. Yes, there are times when people overstay their welcome and all you do is just sit and ignore them and they still don't get the hint and leave.

So here i am, sitting in my room, alone with the silence, enjoying the peace. I've been on downloading frenzy the last couple of days. There are just too many good movies out there. Recent watch would be Dorian Gray. Absolutely delightful watch. I've read the book when i was younger. Always pictured what i'd be like if it were made into a movie. Though as i watched the movie seemed perfectly clear to me. Story line and all, my friends however didn't quite grasp it all. For those who have not read the book, it would seem a bit abrupt in certain places. Main plot is well fitted in, but the bits and pieces in between seem to have been thrown in like dashes of salt added to a meal , a little bit here and there. This is only one man's opinion of course.

"You have the only two things worth having, Mr. Gray. Youth and beauty."

The blind side. Another movie worth watching. To me, it's a perfect blend of humour, and warmth. (no idea if that made sense to u) Though it portrayed only the perfection of the family, and the society, you can't help but think of it as a fairy tale or dream come true. Best part is, it is. A good movie to watch on a Saturday night, snuggling in close with your family, fighting for the pillows. A movie that leaves you smiling at the end.

"Are you goin to protect the family, Michael?"

Next up on my list of movies to watch, are Time traveller's wife and Lovely bones. Regret never having read both books but i'm sure i'll enjoy both movies immensely. Well, there's really not much sense in worrying and feeling guilty for not sitting for my exam. Might as well make most of the time i have.

As i quote Lord Henry in 'Dorian Gray' - "The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing"

Indeed Lord Henry, Indeed..