it's pathetic, that my mornings are awaken to have conversations with you. it's just that, no one else understands me. still a damn headache that's about to implode in my head. when wil it ever stop. i slept for more than 12 hours and i'm still exhausted, with this excruciating pain that won't go away. i decided to skip lectures. i can't concentrate anyway. i find it so hard to breathe sometimes. i even have to hide my phone, just to stop myself from messaging her. makes me feel like an addict. gawd, i'm so addicted to her. i'm trying to respect her wishes, but how much more of this can i take. it's taking everything that i have. all the energy in me, just to live. and it's doing anything but making me live. i have only 3 years left on my side before i'm done with all this studying and we've been through so much. why... please tell me why..