i know i should be sleeping right now...

as i sit here browsing blogs of other tenants/students in this hostel i realised the after effects of the whole no net scenario has caused bloggers to find other outlets to pour out onto or just find other means of idle, time consuming activity. Seems like their blogs have slowed down upon a yellow light or maybe i half expected everyone to be updating on their misery. But it seems to me at this point, that we're blogging out of obligation or habit. posting random sentences that would seem like a topic that should be given much thought to but it's really not (like what i'm doing now ) Perhaps what i'm doing is out of boredom (it's 2am, i can't sleep) or maybe it's the fact that i can't stand to see my blog not feed on my soul.. (eat... u musttt eat...)

Having an easy cycle this week. Came back from class way too early. Kinda prompted me to clean my entire room and still have time to spare before my evening nap. I swear i would have walked around Moscow after class if it weren't for the bladdy rain. Oh how i wish it'd snow instead. Started watching episode after episode of Glee and it came to this particular episode where Kurt; a gay, flamboyant, fashionable, boy, gathered up the courage to admit to his father about his sexuality. At that point of the show i actually held my breath anticipating his father's reaction. A thought entered my mind as i wondered that when straight people watched that exact same part, would they have reacted that way, admiring what that boy did. Because i can never in a million years imagine myself coming out to my folks the way he did (which is a good thing i never had to do that since they pried it out of me) But the sense of relief, knowing you never have to hide from them anymore makes it all worth while.

Sunday morning breeze

Finally got my net back again after being cut off again for the 2nd time. I've grown accustom to living without the net that i now find myself sitting in front of the laptop unable to fully utilize what i've got. Maybe it'll take awhile to get the momentum back. All the more i hate browsing with this slow speed.

Being in 4th year, well it's just as everyone has said. There's not much stress to it. Most of the days i can just kick back and relax. Winter is almost non existent this year due to chemicals sprayed in the air as ordered by the mayor of Moscow. At first i thought that it wouldn't be right without the snow. but i came to realize that it's much less stressful. With the snow, everyone gets so agitated, with the snow blowing in your face and getting your hair messed up, having to wear multiple layers, and your shoes and jeans get wet as well. So i kinda like this year. Though it must mean, that snowboarding is out the question =/

I joined the futsal league this year. In the beginning i did it as a favour for my friends, but i came to enjoy the game occupying my saturday nights. Of course, playing against the newer teams is kinda amusing to watch since they all dive in for the ball at the same time, which kinda reminds me of koi fishes fighting for food. Oh, and i did go to watch Michael Jackson's This is It concert and damn, that movie almost teared me up. It would have been the concert of the century. Even during the rehearsals you could see him giving all he's got just to get it right. I've never felt so satisfied watching a movie.

Other than that i havent been doing anything new other than the usual going here, there and everywhere routine i have. I befriended a late twenties Bangladesh guy, with proved to have benefits. Since he's been here for almost 10 years, he knows practically everyone. Thing about Malaysians though, are most of them don't mix around very much with foreigners, especially the Malays and if someone elses does, then well, people talk. Few people have came up to me to give me warnings to be aware of him. But no one knows why. Ridiculouso. And i'm that type of person who rather flow in the opposite direction, so all the more i'd stand outside and talk to him.

Hmm, i Do miss the net after all. I miss the fact that i can sit in front of my laptop browsing until i forget that i'm hungry or that i need to piss urgently. Which is the case right now. Signing out..

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